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Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Hail the weather!

was raining hailstones this afternoon at the west side of singpore. haha. so exciting! I get to see hail without an air ticket! =)
 
anyway, the reports says that it's not due to the cloud seeding.. then maybe it's mother nature way of telling us to watch out? give u pebble size first, still don't want to stop your nonsense, I give you baseball size. haha.
 

actually just want to break the chain of typing Chinese only. but I realized I get very distracted when I type in English. haha. really dunno how I survive all my assignments when I was schooling. =/
 
*yawn*
 
life recently been quite a bitch la., I would say, and most probably I would stay on in this company la. coz have to die for $. bought another policy recently to safeguard my family. but if end of the world I think all the insurance company also close shop, so = pay for nothing? but in case end of the world is delayed and I somehow die, at least my family dun have to headache about the funeral money lor.
 
=p


Monday, June 10, 2013

曾经朋友

最近在看中文书, 所以有很想用华文来写一下布楼各的感觉。
昨天跟我的女朋友去逛街, 遇到了这个‘曾经朋友’。
我很直觉性的想打招呼,结果没有啦。哈哈。 不然应该会很尴尬吧。=3

为什么会闹翻?

认识我的人,应该会觉得我不太可能和人绝交的。(我看友情看很重的)

闹翻的原因嘛。。 也是因为‘情’。 也许是我太不懂事,遇到困难就会找人倾诉,也许是他太自作聪明,就要把事情说出来。 结果,我下了狠话啦,就翻了咯。

人生很多无奈, 可是,每一件事都会让你领悟到一些什么。

不是对你笑的人都是朋友,要是有人愿意找你谈心事,千万不要背叛他对你的信任。


~人生就是不停的战斗~

每个人的战斗都不一样, 和外界,和内心的。

fighting!

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

fear

we all live in fear, fear of losing things, of having not enough things, of losing out,

we fear rejection, losing pride, being last, of self percieved danger, of people, of change, of aging, of people replacing us

but why is there fear, because of our wants. we hold on to too many things, like a shopper gone loose in a mall. we carry too much like donkeys under slave-drivers, we want too much like a kid with limited vocabruary,

yet, no one is to be responsible for all these that is happening now, becoz all of use contributed to it.

we didn't say 'no' to the education system. we didn't say 'no' to our bosses, we didn't say 'no' to the temptations.

we allow all of these to happen.

which is why what you fear most iwll always come back to you. which is why life is full of lessons, u attract what you think.

wonder why is the system like that now, becoz, of fear, they fear that better people will rise above the current leaders, they hold back their knowledge, they fear hiring people who are better than they are, for fear they will be replaced, they fear speaking against them, for fear they will lose their jobs,



the whole world lives in fear everyday

what is sad now is not people doing evil, but people not daring to speak up and let the evil continue.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Book review 1 - 找回快乐,不需要改变人生

in case people don't know, i love reading. haha
anyways, got this book by chance when I was shopping for my 2013 organizer, walked past it and just found it very 'me' haha.
the author is taiwanese i assumed la. i love the many 'quotes' like phrases in the book and small tips at the end of each short chapter to be happy. 

even the titles for each chapter are quite thought provoking such as 人生一路走来都是亏欠。Direct translation would be we all owe debts as we walk our paths. it's true isn't it, the moment we are born we owe our parents, and as we grow we owe friends, lovers, siblings, family and even passerbys. So, the best way to repay is to live well, if not we will do wrong to those who sacrificed for us. 

i would put it on par with Tuesdays with Morrie, coz this author shared alot of stories about herself, the death of her mom and life in general. 

maybe at my age, when death is quietly creeping up around me, i felt more aware of it? heh.

of coz, not saying that i fear death la. it's a natural progression of life i suppose. just.... = shrugs=

to end off, would be with one of the phrases in the book,
人生这条路需要我们去探索,并不断持续下去, 只要你相信路的尽头不是尽头,可能是另一个起点,你所面临的人生将绘然不同。 

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

「一个人久了」


「一个人久了」

一个人久了,会懒得恋爱­..
一个人久了,会越来越喜欢听歌­..
一个人久了,电话会常常忘记带­..
一个人久了,对爱情会越来越挑剔­..
一个人久了,除了寂寞点外还是蛮开心的­..
一个人久了,会慢慢变得成熟起来­..
一个人久了,会比以前更重视更爱父母,更重视亲情­..
一个人久了,对所有的节日大多没什么期待­..
一个人久了,听到看到别人一对对的很甜蜜,心里多少还是会有些介意­..
一个人久了,会喜欢买很多鞋子,带自己去很多很远的地方­..
一个人久了,会觉得无拘无束自由自在天宽地广­..
一个人久了,爱情会变得越来越不重要,取而代之的是钱和事业­..
一个人久了,会越来越理性,越来越现实­..
一个人久了,即使有一点点无聊和寂寞­..
但是游走在自己的街道上,什么都可以无所谓 没有任何束缚­,
即使很多人都在疑惑­你,为什么没有告别一个人的时光...­

因为­...
一个人久了,会上瘾的...­ ツ

Friday, August 24, 2012

Travel : Tioman August 2012

went to Tioman during the season of raya. and i don't recommand it. lol~ all the malay food places are closed, no ramly! =< oh wells. 
truth is, i've been to Tioman lots of times, and i googled reviews on Tioman and some i feel didn't do justice to it. 
there are many resorts on the island and i've been to a couple over the years, maybe just a quick summary on those that i've been to?

Paya Beach: been there the most number of times because it's more affordable and tourist friendly as in food wise and some touristy shopping. duty free alcohol is available on most islands so i'm not counting that in. Beach wise, over a 100m long? dunno how to guage but not too bad, snorkelling is good, there's some rocks within swimming distance and if you're lucky u can spot the resident sea turtle feeding there. I've seen stingrays there too. but that's off the reef, get a strong swimmer to accompany you if you are not very confident in the waters. There rock falls behind the resort also, so can do abit of trekking.

Panuba: it's a very short beach with only one resort, the panuba Inn, found it by chance during a travel fair and  that i manage to book it, and afterwards i lost the contact. whoops. anyway, think they only accept 4pax min per booking. The adventure then was that u can actually trek to another beach, call the ABC beach, the trek was quite fun, =) like jumping down the huge rocks and stuff. keke.

alright, enough babbling, in short, Tioman is my special place <3 p="p">

ahgirl went on this trip with me too. =D
at Tanjong Gemok (sp?) waiting for the ferry
decided to walk ard the perimeters of the place because we had time to kill
As it was the Raya period, there are stalls set up across the road selling some kueh and stuff.
in the ferry, almost reaching Tioman
Lunchtime at the chinese run resturant where they share their wifi
To the Rock Falls
Tadah!
Paya Beach Resort
another shot.
sunset at paya beach
Chilling and just getting a tan.
Danger lurking........
AH! KILLER!
Dead. ok. I have no idea why i so morbid. but random me do random things. lol

What's a holiday at the beach without jumpshots?

Revived.
the zi char at the chinese resturant. whoops, we finished eating liao
bye Tioman, Till we meet again.
snorkelling pic =) 
everyone look the same with the mask la. lol

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Childcare Rant #1

was actually suppose to go to sleep but my mind just end up going thru the things i will be lecturing my kids on Monday. There is a concern in my classroom now. Butt touching.
It started on Thursday, with a kid actually touching my butt. but i thought it was because I wore a dress for the first time that the kids were curious. I didn't want to be over reacting.
Today, while at the playground, the kids were actually purposing groping butts and pulling pants down. This really rings alarm bells for me, seriously got hell from me. and the kids doing this were supposedly the brighter kids in my class. so, what does it mean? i haven't taught them morally what is right or wrong? they were just playing? and most importantly, where did they 'learn' it from? from me? that would be so totally omfg la.
they got a dressing down from me obviously. but i think it deserve a longer punishment period which i will make next week into. have i allowed them too much freedom? that gave them time to think of all these nonsense? and the most disturbing thing is , it's the girls who are groping the boys. @_@
I do not dress provocatively in case any smart alec tries to annoy me. or is it simply kids are just maturing too fast now? can;t believe i'm losing sleep over this. at the same time, i dun want to see them in the news another 20 yrs time that some of them become perverts. ok. maybe a bit far stretched. but wells......

at the same time, i don't know why, i just thought about this incident maybe 2 years back, this kid who took things from the centre and kept them in her bag. she actually took out her own belongings and replaced them with art materials in her bag. i think that is a very obvious intent to steal. not to mention the many toys parts she took. When caught and we informed the parents, the parents just said, 'oh, because at her grandma hse, she can just take a plastic bag and take whatever she wants'
ermm.. ok... what are you trying to teach your kid? the world is her oyster and she can just take things if she likes them? alright for a 4 yr old, how about when she reaches 14?
maybe it's a small issue for some people. 'aiyah, she still young ma, she dunno ma...'

well, the cold hard truth is , THEY KNOW. they know exactly what they are doing. this is no longer the era when kids are 'gong gong' and dunno anything, they also know, their parents will jump on their side no matter how wrong they are.

well. i know this is a losing battle. in the end, it's still a 'customer is always right' mentality

hopefully i can slp now that i got it out of my system.

Friday, April 13, 2012

不想长大

最近去面试当校长,聊着聊着就开始在想, 我真的那么要当校长吗?
其实也纯粹想要出一口气,让看不起我的人对我另眼相看。
之后呢。。 又在想, 为什么跟自己过不去叻。。 当了头,一定会失去一些自由。
我可以接受吗?
我觉得自己还是个孩子, 哈哈。。。 对啦, 长不大, 就只想着玩,还是‘风心’咯。。
可能还不定性,也许这一生也不会定下来吧。。。

面试也有问我到底想要做什么,真心话就是坏游世界和跳舞咯。。。
当然没有说这个啦。。 哎。。。
为什么人都是忙忙碌碌,到底是为了什么?
如果说是为了老了才坏游世界,可是老了你还能走多远呢?如果说为了下一代, 这个。。 可能还真的没办法了。养育孩子就是一份责任。

所以还真的没办法扛起这种责任,就是不想长大
自私吗?
站时就先停留在这里了。未来的是以后再打算了。。 =/

Thursday, March 15, 2012

The Animal Farm



Just my 2cents worth on the recent events that happened



In this fast pace society and even faster pace virtual reality world. everything spread like wild fire.



it kinds of remind me of my literature text, the animal farm, which of course we are all the sheeps in it. whatever the media says/ post/ rant (?) we will just rush like mad towards it. without checking the validity or 'real-ness' of it.



'baa... 2 legs good, 4 legs baaad'



for instance, the kony cause, i agree it is for a good cause, but do the recipients even want this kind of help? and of so many things to fight for, lack of food, education etc, why would you even want to spent money playing hide and seek with this person?



it's like having a bone but also wanting the bone from the reflection of the water.



yes, the children who got kidnapped are poor things. but what about those who didn't? -shrugs-



like a mother mourning a lost child but neglecting those who are still alive... doesn't make sense to my small brain anyways.



and kony will eventually grow old and die anyway. killing someone wun bring back the dead.



the world is not fair. in anotherpoint of view, we are still kinda like in a food chain. if kony is a shark, we are the fishes, shark eat fish. end of story. life goes on



'4 legs good, 2 legs baadd'



there are just too many things in this world that are unfair, cruel, crazy



but we are born in this era, the era of change, the era of being blind, being confine to boxes, being unappreciated, being expected of, being judged, being belittled, confused, stepped on,



to be at peace is to accept.



Accept is a big word.



Just do what is within your abilities and fuck the rest.






maybe the africans will be thinking, what poor souls we have, having every material thing avalible but our souls are so poor and hollow that we just ran blindly everywhere.






knowing doesn't equal understanding



understanding doesn't equal accepting



accepting doesn't mean you have to know or understand.






Thursday, February 9, 2012

Obituary

i remembered during my poly days, one of my lecturers made us wrote an obituary for ourselves and stuck it on our seats and afterwards everyone walked around the room to look at each other's obituaries.

it was like a living funeral.

it wasn't creepy or anything like that, it was an excersise to sit down and reflect what do you want people to remember you as when you die.

i remember i wrote 'fillial daughter, best friend, great teacher, dancer' among some more stuff.

well... till date, i dun have any answers for any of that.

as a daughter i think i would get a E8, friend, probably a C6, teacher maybe a D7 now. ( used to be better, =< cannot denied that i lost the passion as time goes by with all the arrows and gunshots i recieved) dancer, probably a F9.

i judge myself too harshly? I'm not failing myself, i'm just not up to standard YET.

and among all other roles, sister, aunt, definately F9. probably ungraded.

i should re-do my obituary again.


stop.reflect.think again.

hi.

guess nothing beats my own name then. haha.
i'm proud of who I am, we travelled in the journey call life, and everything made us who we are today.

just wanna talk abt my name today. why the choice of eileen, hmmm.... becoz my first teach whom taught me was eileen. haha. she took me for P1 and 2. I just thought I wanted to be a teacher when i grow up.

i also cannot remember why i like her, 20 over years already, ah... time flies...

oh well, yup, that's the reason why i chose this name. =)

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Totally neglected this blog. simply becoz my CNY was too awesome. and this equals to me gaining weight. =< that's horrible.




a couple of things happened since the last time i updated.




and apologies if you came here looking for ahgirl comics/pictures. I am really too up to my forehead in work and assignment.




In fact, i'm thinking should i rename this blog? maybe. once i think of a name that better reflect me. haha...




anyways, there is a small piece of good news, i got a raise, but i blew it on sponsering a kid, term insurance and savings insurance and study loan. haha. Hope this savings goes a long way for me to start my own business or invest in a property in the future. ( if we are still alive, haha)




got mildly irritated by my boss today, which inspired me to complain abt it here. lol. too strict cannot, relax also cannot. cmi... ARGH! maybe due to the raise she expect more from me. wth... zzzzz *deep breath* i dun give a damn. =p






btw, what do you guys think abt this?

Monday, January 2, 2012

First post of 2012




Hello everyone! Hope you guys have a fanstatic year ahead! =)


I apologize for the lack of updates due to my sucidal mission, studying. I am currently doing a part time dipolma in business management on top of my normal job. *sweatdrop*


hopefully i will be able to find some time to do some drawing or take some pictures soon. =/


with cny coming and massive room revamp needed assignments due, exams coming. -shrug-


oh well,


since it's the first entry, i guess have to do the norm and put in some resolutions right?


-make waking up at 7am a habit.


-love my family more


-drink more plain water





that's about it. what are your resolutions this year? =)

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

那些年,我们追的女孩

哈哈,知道有一点慢了,可是一直没有时间看这部戏,终于今天有一点时间可以用海盗的方式看。 =X


看了之后, 让我想到了中学的时候, 真的是有一点后悔没有做一下坏学生。 哈哈。可能我做的最坏的事就是抄功课吧。。。 回想起来,我还真的满乖的。。。


在中一的时候, 也有一个经常和我斗嘴的人,不同的是,他是会读书的那个。 我是那个一直睡觉的。。。 哈哈。。现在想起来, 还觉得那个时候还满好玩的。。


之后呢, 当然就不同班了, 可是在新的班上也有很多好朋友, 有一班一起唱歌的,一起打羽毛球的朋友, 中三和中四应该是最好玩的时候。有出丑,有暧昧,有喜,有苦,有欢乐,有悲伤。


虽然人生有很多事是徒劳无功的,但很多事在于旅程经历的故事和体验,而不是终点。


人生也会有很多遗憾,就把这些曲折当成故事的小插曲,也应为这样,人生也精彩一些,


感情最美好的时候就是暧昧的时候,不是吗?


只要回想起来还会慧心一笑,就是好的回忆了。=)

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Leeches



*argh*




*sprinkle salt*




Recently had this encounter with a 'leech', - a person who 'koped' stuff and just shamelessly think it's their right to do so.

eg: when i do not offer you my bubble tea, means i do not want to share. this leech just extended her hand and snatch it out of my hands. =_=
and wave me off like i'm her servant or something. roars!
I'm not your BABE or competing to be Miss Nice.

sometimes i wonder how do people end up like this. where did all the EQ go?
-shrugs-


Monday, October 17, 2011

Real Steel



Just watched Real Steel with Zy and Kx just now. The movie left me with a lot of thoughts.

wanted to write like how it made me feel, but i opened up blogger and the mood just left. =_=

haa, anyway, it's a damn nice movie. and i guess the moral of the story is,


it's not about how big you are or how 'high-tech' you are, it's about being able to take blows and determination at the end of the day.

Monday, September 26, 2011

Shoes

Ever looked at another person's shoes and wondered what kind of person they are?

yes, it could mean what place they are going to next.

I think shoes do tell a great deal about the person's character, usually the impluse buys are clothes, but shoes go thru a certain selection process. comfort. design. price. to match the clothes that is already at home. the places you usually go. no matter how cheap a pair shoes is, unless you can find some use for it, one would not usually buy it.

and if you do not feel comfortable wearing, even if you like the design, most probably you wun get it either.

If we could just put ourslves in the shoes of others and be less critical about each other.

i think the world would be a better place.



Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Truth.

well. I am attempting to write an article about the education system in Singapore, being inspired by the previous article, 'http://www.sodahead.com/united-states/what-teachers-really-want-to-tell-parents/question-2143853/' I agreed with this article's contents and come to a conclusion that educators worldwide are facing the same issues.

However, I feel that being here in Singapore we have slightly more issues because we are 'educated' intellectually but not morally anymore. We have scholars who break bonds simply because they are unable to take the pressure of the real world and parents who simply shield their children from all evils or repercussions. If money is able to settle the problems, parents will simply use money to solve it. If money is unable to solve, they are educated enough to write to related officals/ media to blow up matters and demand actions.

Why are we giving in to such tyrannical demands? Yes, we are providing a service but we do not owe you a living. You send your children to recieve education and care, but how much do you really know about the spectrum behind the words 'education and care'? If it's really so easy these days to take care of children, why do some parents dread weekends? I had a parent telling me that when I knock off , it's her turn to start work.

Education. What is in this word? It's not only about ABCs and 123, it's about teaching the children social norms. How to be socially acceptable, to share, take turns, manners, toilet-training, problem solve among themselves, be responsible for the own belongings and even lining up. Children are not born with these skills innate in them. Yes, it is our job to teach them all these but remember, you are your children's first teachers before they come to us, if you have not expose them to such social norms, don't expect them to be 'naturally' acceptable to peers and adults. When teachers feedback about children's behaviour being 'disruptive', parents are likely to get defensive and push the blame on the other child that was involve in the conflict.

Trust.When a teacher really decide to brave fire and tell the truth about your child, parents should be grateful. It shows that the teacher is geniunely concern and want to help your child, it's much easier to tell you that your child is an angel and not correct their behaviour then it is to try to gain support from you. Using the logical side of your mind to think, why would anyone want to get into trouble by telling you lies about your child? If you ask your child, of course your child would tell the story to his/her benefit. We also know you would listen to your child more then us, so why would we want to sabotage ourselves?

Discipline. What kind of discipline is allowed now? There are a million 'no's and yet we are handling at least 8 - 25 children daily. We are only human, sometimes we do raise our voices and it's only because we care about the children's education and well-being. In times when the noise levels are high, we need to speak louder, ask the children to keep quiet. Sometimes we need to be stern to reinforce rules in school. I get feedback saying that their child is sensitive and feels hurt/scare to come to school. If even raising voice in appropriate circumstances is not allowed, we can just let the children run amok and then it will lead to another kind of complaint.

Teachers don't care.

Everyone started teaching caring too much, as time pass by and the amount of 'gunshots' we recieved start to make us jaded. People who allowed children to do as they wish gets 'appreciation' whereas teachers who care and voiced out concerns are 'lousy' teachers. Remember, it's always much easier to go with the flow then against.

Why is it the pre-school fault when children are not coping in primary schools? Couldn't it be the other way round that primary schools expectations are too high? Why is it that we are caught trying to keep up with the escalating standards of education? What is the basic that children are expected to know now? Primary One used to be starting with zero knowledge but now, they have to be able to write, read, add, subtract and some even multiply.

Care. It means the physcial and emotional well-being of the children. How many children we have = to how many different backgrounds, cultures, restrictions we have to cater to for every individual child. Especially in these times when family dynamics can be very different, not everyone have 2 parents, some more and some less.

If all accidents are preventable, we would of course. Who would want to deal with explaining the incidents and taking the blows from the parents? If mosqitoes are controllable, we would invite the mosqitoes for a chat and ask them to leave your children alone. But guess what? We ARE living the the tropics and mosqitoes are part of the ecosystem and I think the mosqitoes are smart these days because parents like to say ' from school one'. I didn't know that mosqitoes are able to sign off.

Recognition. Given the pressure we are under from all aspects, we are not given the respect and recognition we deserved. We are constantly being lashed out at by all aspects, with unspeakable amount of workload being thrown upon us and the lack of support from them. It is no surprise that people who do have the passion and qualifications in this line eventually leave the industry and one can only salute those who are staying on despite all odds.

Think about it, from our perspective.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Clarification

Just thought that I'll make a clarification here.
Sometimes the pictures/stories/drawings watever you wanna call them are not reflections of my life per say.


It's really random stuff that people share with me, or sometimes from movies or stories I read.
I have not really met so many Mr. Wrongs. thank goodness. lol~

But just -shrugs- somethings I saw on the streets, or other people's blogs and stuff.

And even though I would really like to have it as updated as my life. The lazy bug in me just don't agree. haha.


Thanks for the support despite the relatively random/boring entries. =)