we all live in fear, fear of losing things, of having not enough things,
of losing out,
we fear rejection, losing pride, being last, of self percieved danger, of
people, of change, of aging, of people replacing us
but why is there fear, because of our wants. we hold on to too many
things, like a shopper gone loose in a mall. we carry too much like donkeys
under slave-drivers, we want too much like a kid with limited
vocabruary,
yet, no one is to be responsible for all these that is happening now,
becoz all of use contributed to it.
we didn't say 'no' to the education system. we didn't say 'no' to our
bosses, we didn't say 'no' to the temptations.
we allow all of these to happen.
which is why what you fear most iwll always come back to you. which is
why life is full of lessons, u attract what you think.
wonder why is the system like that now, becoz, of fear, they fear that
better people will rise above the current leaders, they hold back their
knowledge, they fear hiring people who are better than they are, for fear they
will be replaced, they fear speaking against them, for fear they will lose their
jobs,
the whole world lives in fear everyday
what is sad now is not people doing evil, but people not daring to speak
up and let the evil continue.
Showing posts with label ramblings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label ramblings. Show all posts
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Book review 1 - 找回快乐，不需要改变人生
in case people don't know, i love reading. haha
anyways, got this book by chance when I was shopping for my 2013 organizer, walked past it and just found it very 'me' haha.
the author is taiwanese i assumed la. i love the many 'quotes' like phrases in the book and small tips at the end of each short chapter to be happy.
even the titles for each chapter are quite thought provoking such as 人生一路走来都是亏欠。Direct translation would be we all owe debts as we walk our paths. it's true isn't it, the moment we are born we owe our parents, and as we grow we owe friends, lovers, siblings, family and even passerbys. So, the best way to repay is to live well, if not we will do wrong to those who sacrificed for us.
i would put it on par with Tuesdays with Morrie, coz this author shared alot of stories about herself, the death of her mom and life in general.
maybe at my age, when death is quietly creeping up around me, i felt more aware of it? heh.
of coz, not saying that i fear death la. it's a natural progression of life i suppose. just.... = shrugs=
to end off, would be with one of the phrases in the book,
人生这条路需要我们去探索，并不断持续下去， 只要你相信路的尽头不是尽头，可能是另一个起点，你所面临的人生将绘然不同。
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
childcare rant #2
i think it's #2, anyways... just really need to get this off my chest, this mother hen of mine. really on my nerve!
Saturday, May 26, 2012
Giving Thanks
Just wanna give thanks to life,
For everything i've been thru, going thru, for it made me who i am, for better or for worse. haha
met up with my primary school friends last night, and caught up with each other, quite warming that despite the pulls and pushs that we went thru, the ups and downs in our friendship, we managed to stay friends, hehe. esp with my personality. hur hur..
it's quite interesting to realized that our conversations now are about family, work, kids at home, health issues, mid-life crisis, travelling, planning for solo life in future, like saving a sum of money for our old age. It seems like eons ago when our conversations were abt boyfriends, fashion, neo prints, finding a husband, school stress, grades, canteen food, CCAs, * wistful smile*
Cheers to our 21 years of friendship and many more years to come. =)
we might not always see each other, but we will always be there for each other in times of darkness
Life
Currently I am feeling stuck. and almost ready to give up the fight. Giving in to the Nua- monster. used to want to do alot of things all at the same time. causing alot of internal fights between my id, ego and superego, leaving me feeling upset with myself the whole time, simply cause my body can no longer take the crap i put on myself. and something significant happened to me which i believe is a rock being thrown at me to make me re-evaluate my life, what i want vs. what i need.
mid life crisis, I will most probably get out of education after this year, there only so much bull i can take after 11 odd years of being in this line. from kids, parents, management. I understand it's the same crap everywhere but at least a really different environment, all these mirco stuff of who took whose's space, which colleague targeted whose's students, i remote controlled the mosqitoes to just bite a single kid, dealing with all the naggy ah-mas and end up getting a feedback that my attitude was very bad. wtf max. all these kinda made my vision grow narrower. i dun want to become one of those definitely. Just really want to let go of all this nonsense.
for now, education line is slowly but surely going the wrong path for me, look around you, all those who grew up with 'love education' can name me someone who is actually functional? what is the value now? $ or moral? just feel like it's one huge rat race with who has the best stuff, house, results, salary, latest gadgets.
I've been searching for a reason to hang on, to hold on to being in this line. some of my students gave me that reason, but many are the reasons that i want to leave too. for now, i'm just holding on becoz of one student. but come end of the year, he wun be my student anymore. =<
Planning to take a break, after all my financial issues have been settled, escape to Tioman for abit before returning to working life. haha.... yes... dreaming... well, it's nice to dream once in a while.
For everything i've been thru, going thru, for it made me who i am, for better or for worse. haha
met up with my primary school friends last night, and caught up with each other, quite warming that despite the pulls and pushs that we went thru, the ups and downs in our friendship, we managed to stay friends, hehe. esp with my personality. hur hur..
it's quite interesting to realized that our conversations now are about family, work, kids at home, health issues, mid-life crisis, travelling, planning for solo life in future, like saving a sum of money for our old age. It seems like eons ago when our conversations were abt boyfriends, fashion, neo prints, finding a husband, school stress, grades, canteen food, CCAs, * wistful smile*
Cheers to our 21 years of friendship and many more years to come. =)
we might not always see each other, but we will always be there for each other in times of darkness
Life
Currently I am feeling stuck. and almost ready to give up the fight. Giving in to the Nua- monster. used to want to do alot of things all at the same time. causing alot of internal fights between my id, ego and superego, leaving me feeling upset with myself the whole time, simply cause my body can no longer take the crap i put on myself. and something significant happened to me which i believe is a rock being thrown at me to make me re-evaluate my life, what i want vs. what i need.
mid life crisis, I will most probably get out of education after this year, there only so much bull i can take after 11 odd years of being in this line. from kids, parents, management. I understand it's the same crap everywhere but at least a really different environment, all these mirco stuff of who took whose's space, which colleague targeted whose's students, i remote controlled the mosqitoes to just bite a single kid, dealing with all the naggy ah-mas and end up getting a feedback that my attitude was very bad. wtf max. all these kinda made my vision grow narrower. i dun want to become one of those definitely. Just really want to let go of all this nonsense.
for now, education line is slowly but surely going the wrong path for me, look around you, all those who grew up with 'love education' can name me someone who is actually functional? what is the value now? $ or moral? just feel like it's one huge rat race with who has the best stuff, house, results, salary, latest gadgets.
I've been searching for a reason to hang on, to hold on to being in this line. some of my students gave me that reason, but many are the reasons that i want to leave too. for now, i'm just holding on becoz of one student. but come end of the year, he wun be my student anymore. =<
Planning to take a break, after all my financial issues have been settled, escape to Tioman for abit before returning to working life. haha.... yes... dreaming... well, it's nice to dream once in a while.
Taking a leap of Faith
(Bungy Jump at Phuket 20 May12)
Friday, May 18, 2012
Monday, October 11, 2010
When you have nothing good to say...
it's always better to shut the f up, coz it's better to be quiet when you dunno what u are talking abt
and one day, u might lose all your friends with that mouth of yours.
there's a reason why we have 2 eyes, ears,nostrils,hands,legs and only 1 mouth.
it's so we see more, listen more, smell more, do more and talk less.
make sense?
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
annoyed!
freaking annoyed by annoying arses...
applied for a part time job and i dunno if i will get it. but just cross fingers and hope.
applyed for 3 similiar jobs before but all also no reply.
just saw this tweet by DC 'Bad things shouldn't happen to good people, but they do'
i think it's becoz bad people make more noise and in this world if u make more noise, u win. right?
the noisest collegues is tot to be doing the most work, the noisest kid get the most attention, the noisest auntie get the most discount.
which is why the noiest politition get the section 55.
haha!
Monday, October 4, 2010
stepped on shit
stepped on shit a few days back.roars.
oh well....
hopefully this week will be better.
have a good week, everyone...
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
above 18?
seriously thinking abt changing this blog to those like flag abv 18 kind? so that i know kids wun be reading it? haha. or they will be solely responsible if they wannt read it.
had a bad day at work. kana hump thump by a motherchu for his leisure. at least from my point of view. details are not needed, coz this is the kind of people who enjoy steping on others. it's written all over their faces.
im increasingly negative abt things now. any thing and any one can pissed me off like hell. i think my time is up in this line. i know i can do a good job still to get thru this shitty time that i'm still tied to be there. i know some good parents might appreciate me and kids maybe. but.. it's just the amt of pricks ard that really make working intorable.
still things happen for a reason, this is something i strongly belive in, like karma, someday they will get what they deserve. either their kids will get it or they will get it. it's the circle of life. what u give u will recieve.
to say i did not curse them i would be lying. of coz i curse them upside down. am amazed the evil-ness in me is still here. haha. and had leveled up some more. lol!
most of the time, the mess i've gotten into. i feel bad only becoz i've implicated ppl who are good. but never to the pricks who make noise.
was watching hell's kitchen on youtube. and ramsay being rude to cust. i read the comments and there are ppl who love him n the other way. ppl who love him, i figure are people who are sane, been in service line at least. and ppl who calls him a bully are just pricks like the customers themselves. who are soooooo bloody arrogant andsnobbish. people who think death and natural disasters can be stopped with money. sometimes, i think natural disasters are jsut a way to control population and a reminder to appreciate ppl more.
unlike here. being safe and convient is already taken for granted. i think that's y it led to the lack of appreciation for everything and everyone here. hot, complain, rain complain. we have too much. seriously.
our names are really smelly throughout the world already. snobbish being the top on the list. just go any where la. and say u are from the neighboring countries. the locals will surely say the people from my country are snobs.
it's sad la. so once u dun behave like a snob, even the people here also dun belive u are local. isn't that sad?
had a bad day at work. kana hump thump by a motherchu for his leisure. at least from my point of view. details are not needed, coz this is the kind of people who enjoy steping on others. it's written all over their faces.
im increasingly negative abt things now. any thing and any one can pissed me off like hell. i think my time is up in this line. i know i can do a good job still to get thru this shitty time that i'm still tied to be there. i know some good parents might appreciate me and kids maybe. but.. it's just the amt of pricks ard that really make working intorable.
still things happen for a reason, this is something i strongly belive in, like karma, someday they will get what they deserve. either their kids will get it or they will get it. it's the circle of life. what u give u will recieve.
to say i did not curse them i would be lying. of coz i curse them upside down. am amazed the evil-ness in me is still here. haha. and had leveled up some more. lol!
most of the time, the mess i've gotten into. i feel bad only becoz i've implicated ppl who are good. but never to the pricks who make noise.
was watching hell's kitchen on youtube. and ramsay being rude to cust. i read the comments and there are ppl who love him n the other way. ppl who love him, i figure are people who are sane, been in service line at least. and ppl who calls him a bully are just pricks like the customers themselves. who are soooooo bloody arrogant andsnobbish. people who think death and natural disasters can be stopped with money. sometimes, i think natural disasters are jsut a way to control population and a reminder to appreciate ppl more.
unlike here. being safe and convient is already taken for granted. i think that's y it led to the lack of appreciation for everything and everyone here. hot, complain, rain complain. we have too much. seriously.
our names are really smelly throughout the world already. snobbish being the top on the list. just go any where la. and say u are from the neighboring countries. the locals will surely say the people from my country are snobs.
it's sad la. so once u dun behave like a snob, even the people here also dun belive u are local. isn't that sad?
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