The Animal Farm

Just my 2cents worth on the recent events that happened

In this fast pace society and even faster pace virtual reality world. everything spread like wild fire.

it kinds of remind me of my literature text, the animal farm, which of course we are all the sheeps in it. whatever the media says/ post/ rant (?) we will just rush like mad towards it. without checking the validity or 'real-ness' of it.

'baa... 2 legs good, 4 legs baaad'

for instance, the kony cause, i agree it is for a good cause, but do the recipients even want this kind of help? and of so many things to fight for, lack of food, education etc, why would you even want to spent money playing hide and seek with this person?

it's like having a bone but also wanting the bone from the reflection of the water.

yes, the children who got kidnapped are poor things. but what about those who didn't? -shrugs-

like a mother mourning a lost child but neglecting those who are still alive... doesn't make sense to my small brain anyways.

and kony will eventually grow old and die anyway. killing someone wun bring back the dead.

the world is not fair. in anotherpoint of view, we are still kinda like in a food chain. if kony is a shark, we are the fishes, shark eat fish. end of story. life goes on

'4 legs good, 2 legs baadd'

there are just too many things in this world that are unfair, cruel, crazy

but we are born in this era, the era of change, the era of being blind, being confine to boxes, being unappreciated, being expected of, being judged, being belittled, confused, stepped on,

to be at peace is to accept.

Accept is a big word.

Just do what is within your abilities and fuck the rest.

maybe the africans will be thinking, what poor souls we have, having every material thing avalible but our souls are so poor and hollow that we just ran blindly everywhere.

knowing doesn't equal understanding

understanding doesn't equal accepting

accepting doesn't mean you have to know or understand.

what is...?

just been wondering, what makes a relationship work......

From being blindly in love...

To being woken up by wedding bells, after which being bound by wedding vows...

Maybe, there will be habits that annoys you but you never noticed before...

certain characteristics that were not there before...

you will fight...

But you will make up as well... ( come on guys, even if it's not your fault, make the first move!)

since both have chosen each other, thru thick or thin, sbs or smrt, rich or poor, ponding or flooding, in sickness or in health, 1K salary or 2K, cherish the fate that brought u together, the one beside you, is the 'good' you done in the previous ten lives (chinese saying), Keep communicating till the day you can't and when that day comes, hold each other's hand and just keep walking.


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am currenty having some issues with my keyboard, with the Fn key jammed, it not even funny lor... =/ maybe its a sign to get something new *spendthrifth mode*

Best

I may not be the best, but i will always do my best.

Climb Climb

we all start off on the same level...
some of us progress.. and some were left behind...

Some of us progress further,

i think that's why, the higher you go, the lonelier you are...

i actually drew this during the period where i had the chance to become a principal. but after weighing the pros and cons and matching my lifestyle, i realized i'm not after the higher stuff becoz i would have to give up dance. something i am not able to do. i still want to travel, have fun, live life, maybe one day i will want to take up more responsibilities, i am capable of that, just that i think being at the bottom actually have more freedom, and its what i want presently, also having being 'stabbed' by annon, and being too lazy to clear my fb list, also shows that how evil ppl can be, i haven learnt how to tackle this kind of bad people yet. so probably i have to have more lessons to learn how to deal with all these low esteem ppl. -shrugs-

i am recieving lessons now, with one hater who keep stabbing me at work, so yup, learning how to deal with idiots like this.

~life might not give you what you want, but it will always give you what you need.~

Obituary

i remembered during my poly days, one of my lecturers made us wrote an obituary for ourselves and stuck it on our seats and afterwards everyone walked around the room to look at each other's obituaries.

it was like a living funeral.

it wasn't creepy or anything like that, it was an excersise to sit down and reflect what do you want people to remember you as when you die.

i remember i wrote 'fillial daughter, best friend, great teacher, dancer' among some more stuff.

well... till date, i dun have any answers for any of that.

as a daughter i think i would get a E8, friend, probably a C6, teacher maybe a D7 now. ( used to be better, =< cannot denied that i lost the passion as time goes by with all the arrows and gunshots i recieved) dancer, probably a F9.

i judge myself too harshly? I'm not failing myself, i'm just not up to standard YET.

and among all other roles, sister, aunt, definately F9. probably ungraded.

i should re-do my obituary again.

stop.reflect.think again.

hi.

guess nothing beats my own name then. haha.
i'm proud of who I am, we travelled in the journey call life, and everything made us who we are today.

just wanna talk abt my name today. why the choice of eileen, hmmm.... becoz my first teach whom taught me was eileen. haha. she took me for P1 and 2. I just thought I wanted to be a teacher when i grow up.

i also cannot remember why i like her, 20 over years already, ah... time flies...

oh well, yup, that's the reason why i chose this name. =)

Totally neglected this blog. simply becoz my CNY was too awesome. and this equals to me gaining weight. =< that's horrible.

a couple of things happened since the last time i updated.

and apologies if you came here looking for ahgirl comics/pictures. I am really too up to my forehead in work and assignment.

In fact, i'm thinking should i rename this blog? maybe. once i think of a name that better reflect me. haha...

anyways, there is a small piece of good news, i got a raise, but i blew it on sponsering a kid, term insurance and savings insurance and study loan. haha. Hope this savings goes a long way for me to start my own business or invest in a property in the future. ( if we are still alive, haha)

got mildly irritated by my boss today, which inspired me to complain abt it here. lol. too strict cannot, relax also cannot. cmi... ARGH! maybe due to the raise she expect more from me. wth... zzzzz *deep breath* i dun give a damn. =p

btw, what do you guys think abt this?