Climb Climb

we all start off on the same level...
some of us progress.. and some were left behind...

Some of us progress further,

i think that's why, the higher you go, the lonelier you are...

i actually drew this during the period where i had the chance to become a principal. but after weighing the pros and cons and matching my lifestyle, i realized i'm not after the higher stuff becoz i would have to give up dance. something i am not able to do. i still want to travel, have fun, live life, maybe one day i will want to take up more responsibilities, i am capable of that, just that i think being at the bottom actually have more freedom, and its what i want presently, also having being 'stabbed' by annon, and being too lazy to clear my fb list, also shows that how evil ppl can be, i haven learnt how to tackle this kind of bad people yet. so probably i have to have more lessons to learn how to deal with all these low esteem ppl. -shrugs-

i am recieving lessons now, with one hater who keep stabbing me at work, so yup, learning how to deal with idiots like this.

~life might not give you what you want, but it will always give you what you need.~

Obituary

i remembered during my poly days, one of my lecturers made us wrote an obituary for ourselves and stuck it on our seats and afterwards everyone walked around the room to look at each other's obituaries.

it was like a living funeral.

it wasn't creepy or anything like that, it was an excersise to sit down and reflect what do you want people to remember you as when you die.

i remember i wrote 'fillial daughter, best friend, great teacher, dancer' among some more stuff.

well... till date, i dun have any answers for any of that.

as a daughter i think i would get a E8, friend, probably a C6, teacher maybe a D7 now. ( used to be better, =< cannot denied that i lost the passion as time goes by with all the arrows and gunshots i recieved) dancer, probably a F9.

i judge myself too harshly? I'm not failing myself, i'm just not up to standard YET.

and among all other roles, sister, aunt, definately F9. probably ungraded.

i should re-do my obituary again.

stop.reflect.think again.

hi.

guess nothing beats my own name then. haha.
i'm proud of who I am, we travelled in the journey call life, and everything made us who we are today.

just wanna talk abt my name today. why the choice of eileen, hmmm.... becoz my first teach whom taught me was eileen. haha. she took me for P1 and 2. I just thought I wanted to be a teacher when i grow up.

i also cannot remember why i like her, 20 over years already, ah... time flies...

oh well, yup, that's the reason why i chose this name. =)