WOOT!
It's OVER!
the slience after the party is deafening. but it was a damn good show. totally love it! dunno wat's got into me pre recital. but i think it was better den me getting annoyed with people. at least i was annoyed with myself. haha. Pre-recital does alot fo funny things to people. you get pissed off easily. u get sleepless nights.. u jump when you hear ur music on the radio, u start thinking of all the pitfalls. u feel insecure, maybe not everyone feel that way, but, at least that how it works for me. i'm too scary even for myself. lol.
i was in fact still beating myself silly just before recital day. still feeling lousy and.. just blue la... my instructor clare was still telling me i'm not open enough in my dance. as in i am still very reserved. it made me wanna cry. dancing is all i ever wanted and i know a shy dancer wun get anywhere. and i know my body language shows i'm a shy dancer, which i am. shit. it left me battered for a few days.. this kind of bruising is worse den physical... i love clare and i know that she want me to improve. sometimes, the truth still hurts. i think truth hurts basically.
When it hurts, the only way to get over it, is to get thru it. continue doing watever needs to be done and give more. pile on the make up, smile. dance till ur feet get blisters and the blisters dry up and ur skin fall off. dance till every ounce of your muscle ache and just keep going. it will pay off.
show day was fab! everyone was nervous, but everyone gave their all. the energy was high up. and during pat's item it was really awesome. to hear the cheers from the crowd. and i heard my principal screaming my name! totally turn me on! =) it was really damn good! the feeling was the best as compared to last 2 yrs..
during girl's hip hop, i was front left for a good amount of time, and dancing first line was like so scary, i cannot see the rest of my dance peers.. haha... scary but shiok! and the audience was soooo near!! omg~~ and the energy was damn high. by the end of it, there was a signigicant uproar from the crowd! THE FEELING WAS SHIOK-NESS siaz!!
And the most happiest part was i was to give flowers to my fav. clare at the end of it! and I it was soo awesome! first time giving flowers and to my most fav. instructor some more! HONOURED MAX!
something differnt this year happen to me internally is.. i wanna go for more classes instead of taking a break. i wanna get better, stronger,
if i could dance forever, i dun mind living with my baby face. =D hahahaa!!
It's OVER!
the slience after the party is deafening. but it was a damn good show. totally love it! dunno wat's got into me pre recital. but i think it was better den me getting annoyed with people. at least i was annoyed with myself. haha. Pre-recital does alot fo funny things to people. you get pissed off easily. u get sleepless nights.. u jump when you hear ur music on the radio, u start thinking of all the pitfalls. u feel insecure, maybe not everyone feel that way, but, at least that how it works for me. i'm too scary even for myself. lol.
i was in fact still beating myself silly just before recital day. still feeling lousy and.. just blue la... my instructor clare was still telling me i'm not open enough in my dance. as in i am still very reserved. it made me wanna cry. dancing is all i ever wanted and i know a shy dancer wun get anywhere. and i know my body language shows i'm a shy dancer, which i am. shit. it left me battered for a few days.. this kind of bruising is worse den physical... i love clare and i know that she want me to improve. sometimes, the truth still hurts. i think truth hurts basically.
When it hurts, the only way to get over it, is to get thru it. continue doing watever needs to be done and give more. pile on the make up, smile. dance till ur feet get blisters and the blisters dry up and ur skin fall off. dance till every ounce of your muscle ache and just keep going. it will pay off.
show day was fab! everyone was nervous, but everyone gave their all. the energy was high up. and during pat's item it was really awesome. to hear the cheers from the crowd. and i heard my principal screaming my name! totally turn me on! =) it was really damn good! the feeling was the best as compared to last 2 yrs..
during girl's hip hop, i was front left for a good amount of time, and dancing first line was like so scary, i cannot see the rest of my dance peers.. haha... scary but shiok! and the audience was soooo near!! omg~~ and the energy was damn high. by the end of it, there was a signigicant uproar from the crowd! THE FEELING WAS SHIOK-NESS siaz!!
And the most happiest part was i was to give flowers to my fav. clare at the end of it! and I it was soo awesome! first time giving flowers and to my most fav. instructor some more! HONOURED MAX!
something differnt this year happen to me internally is.. i wanna go for more classes instead of taking a break. i wanna get better, stronger,
if i could dance forever, i dun mind living with my baby face. =D hahahaa!!
